My grad sch0ol applications are finally completed and sent in! After months of painstakingly choosing schools, asking professors for recommendation letters, filling out the applications, and writing statements of purpose and other various essays, my grad school apps are finished! It was such a relief to send the last one in and be done with that process… until the next morning when the waiting began.
Since I had been so focused on my studies and my applications, I hadn’t really given much thought to where I am going when I graduate or what I wanted to do. Some thought, but not too much. So with my mind now free from last semester’s insane schedule and my applications, I now have plenty of time to ponder and try to plan for life post-graduation. However… it is really a waiting game. I have to wait to hear back from grad schools. I have to wait to apply for jobs. I have to wait to try to find an apartment. All this waiting; I think I might go crazy. I do not like to wait. I like to know so that I can plan. Instead, I find myself waiting and having to trust God that He will actually take care of me like He promised He would. He tells me not to worry.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, not about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the over, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? There do not be anxious, saying ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:25-34
God will take care of me. He will provide for me because He loves me. And He will show me what to do and where to go when it is time to know and prepare. Today, I just need to focus on Him and live life. Today has its own troubles to deal with – no need to focus on hypothetical future problems. So I will continue to wait and know that God’s plan for my life will be all that He has promised.